Friday, May 24, 2013

Counting Down the Days

Summer, here I come!
12 and a half days... 11 and a half days... 10 and a half days... 9 and a half days....8 and a half days...
I'm getting there. I'm getting to the day of laughter. The day of memories. The day of crying. The day of joy. The day I leave my middle school.

It's such a bittersweet feeling. I mean, I'm anticipating the day when I no longer have to deal with crazy administrators and people that I scowl at each time I look at them... But then I don't want to leave some of the most amazing teachers and amazing people...

But you know, there's always a time when we have to move on, and I will do that. I will count down the days I don't have to deal with some of the worse teachers I've known... but I don't want to count the days I have left to be with the great teachers that have been there for me these past few years.

I'm feeling so bipolar about this. I want to get away from the place but at the same time, I don't want to leave. I want to get away from all the administrator madness. Speaking of administrator madness... we have a new rule that came out this week. We are no longer allowed to have any physical contact with each other. That means no hugging, no patting, no comforting, no poking, no leaning, no high-fiving... well, you get the idea. I know that this is a strict rule in some schools but why was this brought up when we had 10 days of school left. This rule was brought by our new Vice Principal. She seems nice at first but all of middle school hates her now. I mean, with this new rule was spread across the school and not "officially" announced. This "no physical contact" is considered sexually harassment and I can see why it can be... but that means I can no longer interact with friends. I mean, it's almost impossible to NOT high-five my friends since we do it all the time.

You can't even have physical contact with family members. I mean, one guy went up to hug his sister and he almost got a detention for hugging his sister. That is absurd! I told my parents this... and they laughed. It's ridiculous. That new Vice Principal has no idea what she's doing. I mean, if she was going to make the rule, at least make it for next year... not 10 days before school is out. Everyone is mocking the rule now... Including all the best students.

That's one of the reasons I want to leave the school. My silly administrators make good stories to tell though. :)
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Monday, May 20, 2013


There are some days where you just have to cry...

Not because you are weak, but you are strong for too long. There will always be a time when you break. A time when you can no longer stay strong. A time where you have to let all your hate, frustrations, and thoughts out. There will always be a time when you crack.

You have to put on that shell every morning so the public can't see the pain. They can't see what you suffer through each day... or see the downfalls of life. That shell becomes you until there's a day when you can no longer stand it and you just cry... You cry because you hate the people in life. You cry because of how unfair your life is.... But after crying until you have no more tears, your shell is back and stronger. You put up with the unfairness and the people you hate and carry your shell.

Only true friends can see when you crack. You might not let them see the tears that you cry but they can see when you've had enough and when you just need to let the emotions out... Because you know you can't lie to them.

So if you ever need to cry yourself to sleep... Do it. You've been strong for too long so cry for an hour and become strong again. Don't let it crack too often... but don't hold that shell forever. If you do, you'll crack and it's almost impossible to repair.

Remember, even the strongest cry.

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

That was awkward... "Love"

Okay, just to clarify before I start, I am not interested in a relationship yet and I won't be for at least a few more years. I can be friendly with guys and hang out/dance with them but I'm not into a relationship.

So, I've had a few "awkward" moments during school in my 9th grade year. As you probably know, I'm really not the flirty type. It's just really me. So, it's awkward for me when I'm mentioned with a guy.

1) My first one was last month, before my trip to the Spanish Language Fair. Last year, our "passports" for the fair had information including "spouse and kids." I didn't put anything for those categories because I wasn't really interested. So, one of our peers decided to match everyone up in case the passports were going to be like last year's (luckily, they took it off.) During lunch, I found out that I was "married" to one of the smartest guys in my grade, 'J.'

That was awkward because first, we don't talk a lot unless it's something related to school. Second, it's just weird to be "married" to someone you hardly know. I thought it was ridiculous and that I'd rather be single than "married." (We aren't in elementary school for goodness sakes.)

2) Next awkward moment happened during an assembly about a few months ago. I have a few guy friends so it's natural for me to sit by them but what's awkward is when they start doing their little "flirt tricks" on me. You know how some guys like to put their arm around a girl's shoulder? That's what they did and they used their little tricks. To be honest, some of them are so lame... but it's awkward when they do that with me... because I'm not usually one to be flirted with. Here's an example of a few they did...

3) This one wasn't super awkward but... still. It was awkward. So during the last few minutes of peer leadership, a few of us decided to play "MASH." If you've never played it, you haven't lived your shildhood. (Here's how if anyone needs a guide.) Anyways, we went through most of my friends. Mine was totally random and for me, the boys were randomly chosen by my peers. From what I remembered, I lived in a shack, was married to 'J' again, owned a taco truck, and was a plumber with a pet dog. (I wanted an alpaca though.) We did 'Js' "MASH" and he was married to me... That was just 3 situations where we were paired up together. The awkwardness between us was just weird.
Then my close friend D. did his "MASH." Guess what? I was married to him. So... I had some "explaining" to do. Plus, he was a little disappointed because he didn't get his crush (I wasn't offended though.) Turns out it kind of spread to some of my friend who weren't in my class. More and more awkwardness as time goes.

4) My most recent moment happened on Monday. I was in Computer Tech and we were done with our work so we had some free time. I decided to sit on the floor next to Aub. (we had laptops that day) because I was bored. Then D and "Jak" came over. After a few minutes later, I ended up sitting right next to Aub and D. We just kinda all sat there in silence. I started talking to D about his strange quietness and then "Jak" came over and blurted something out. It was completely unexpected. Here's how everything went:

*D and I were talking really quietly then Jak comes over and gives the two of us a really strange look*
Jak: Wait aren't you two married?
D: Yup.
Me: Wow! You just said it like that?
D: Sorry. It just happened, okay?
Jak: Why don't you put your arm around her?
D: No. She'd hit me. Plus, I don't want to.
Jak: D, I will make you. *Turns to me* Would you hit him if he put his arm around you?
Me: Uh... no. But it'd be very awkward. *I started scooting closer to Aub.*

And then it pretty much stopped from there. Like I said, I'm not used to these types of things and I don't know when I'll ever be. To be honest, I'm not one to push away a guy but I'm not one to like that type of stuff. Even if he's my closest guy friend (and probably my longest one) it doesn't mean I can just have that type of thing happen and not feel weird. Plus, his crush was very very very very near me so I'd hate to make him feel bad and send wrong messages.

What's even more weird about that is that I'm not very physical with him. While some teens hug their friends every day, I rarely hug most of my friends and I've only hugged most of my guy friends only about 4 times... Out of my 2-3 years knowing them. 

So yeah... Those were my main awkward "love" stories this year. (I'm not even sure if they are considered to be categorized love but even if it's not, then they are awkward flirty moments.)

So which moment was your favorite one? Comment below or vote on the side poll to tell me (poll will be posted soon). Have any awkward flirt moments? You can tell me in the comments as well!

The stuff and people I get involved with...

P.S. Just clarifying again, I am not saying that I am putting my guy friends in the "friend-zone" but I'm just saying that I'm not 100% comfortable with the idea of physical contact with guys I hang out with everyday and getting into a relationship (even if it's fake/jokingly.) Maybe in a few years I'll be ready but as of now, I'll just stick to rare hugs and being freaks with them. ❤

Sunday, May 5, 2013

College Graduation, Partying, and Iron Man 3!

This weekend has been hectic... and yet fun.

Let's start on Friday.
It was my uncle's graduation from college so we checked out of school a half hour early and got ready. It was about a 30 minute drive to the university and we almost got lost twice...  But we made the ceremony on time. It was my first graduation ceremony I went to. I was a little bored because I wasn't focused. I tried to listen to the ceremony while I was on my iPod though. (My cousins, on the other hand, didn't care to really listen.) Some of the speeches amazed me though because of all the similes and metaphors there.

We took pictures with my uncle and went to see some of his architecture work. The ceremony was an hour and we spent an hour or so roaming around and taking pictures. Now I know w
hat to look forward to at my graduation in about 5-10 years.

Shiny Sun, my dad, and I went back home for half an hour and went to his house for a celebrational barbeque. There was tons of yummy food and tons of games for us to play. I actually played some pool... I'm not the best at it since I've only played 1 other time in my life but at least I didn't fail 100%. We didn't get home until about 10 o'clock.

I slept in after a long night... and spent the rest of my afternoon watching Iron Man 1 while working on general vocab list. Then at 6:00 PM, I went to my Aub's house. My friends were already there watching Iron Man 1 & 2. At about 6:30, we all left for IRON MAN 3! I was so excited since it was supposed to be one of the best in the series. They were right.

It was hilarious, as always and the story just put me on edge. I'm not going to give any spoilers. I have to say though, the iron suits in the movie were amazing. All of us were just fangirling constantly. You have to watch Iron Man 1, Iron Man 2, and Avengers to understand everything though. (I love how they connect all the movies together.)

My guy friends also dressed up as Star Wars characters because it was "May the 4th." May the fourth be with you. *ba dum crash* I have to admit, it was pretty cool. (They had plastic lightsabers with them and luckily, it wasn't considered a weapon.)

I didn't come home until 10:00... And it doesn't help that I had a lack of sleep this past week. That's what I deserve if I want a social life, fun, and good grades. So that was my weekend of partying.

Snow in May?

What did I wake up to on the first day of May?
April showers are supposed to bring May flowers… Not May snow showers!

Luckily, the snow cleared up quickly. I can't believe how crazy the weather can be. I mean, on Monday, it was beautiful and warm. Then two days later, we wake up to snow and cold. Make up your mind Mother Nature! I just want spring/summer to stay. Winter ended months ago so don’t decide to come back. Hopefully that will be the only day I’ll see snow in the spring/summer.

Anyways, aside from my frustration about the weather, it’s May! Which means it’s only a month away from my favorite month, June. I don't have a lot to look forward to this month but it’s just one more month left of school. I can survive as long as it’s sunny and happy days.

I hope May will be a good month... of non-laziness.
♥A hopeful Petpet
Singing Hatsune Miku